So are painful are the tears in my heart
l want to let them out but l keep telling myself they are not worth it
He is not worth it, can’t cry for him after all the pain he put me through
l walk around with a smile so big its about to cover up my whole face
Only if it was a genuine smile, l swear l smile larger than a person
Who means it, someone whose happier than me but l can’t show
l can’t let the people around me see the pain in me
l can’t admit how much I am going through, how bad l wanna cry
How l need someone to let me cry and not judge me for it
This tears are heavy, carrying everywhere doesnt make it easy
Seeing him makes me wanna vanish from earth, wanna die since l know
What his capable of, l know what he can make me do, he was once
My weakness but he mistreated me and now l carry him in my heart
With pain, confussion and hatred
He as heavy for me as the tears l live with.
The heavy tears l live with…..